January to March - Got half of my back outlined.Was preparing for end of year examinations.
April - officially Events Management  year 2.
May - Finally legal to smoke/club/get inked, dating Shafique near the end of May.
June - Got attached with who else but that guy I was dating the previous month,
             felt like the happiest girl on earth.
July - School events yet again. Our 1st month. Babylove got into NS.
August - Loaded with projects, projects and more projects AND shits happened.
September - fucked up.
October - fucked up.
November - even more fucked up.Got new ink.
December - fucked up. New car from daddy,worse post-xmas.
                      Completing my half back tomorrow.

 

So painful, so fucking painful after the first half of the year. I feel so fake
having to put up a smile everyday, with a cheery tone and pretended that
everything's alright and we were lovely-dovey as ever.

People envied us, telling me how sweet and loving we looked.
But inside the heart, my answer was and still is : I wish so too. 

I really wonder how I tolerated all these in this 2months, given my very impatient
characteristic. I guess what people say about the one who you love most brings you
the most painful sufferings is true.

Why do I feel like I have no rights or no says in this relationship now?
Everything has to go/be your way, no matter what you say is always right
and I'm always the blame, the idiot who assumes. Fuck it that you did not
think of me at all this 2months like you have stated, not assumed by me,
it's more like you've never bother to spare a thought or two for me and my
feelings,at all.I've been missing out so much about you it freaks me out.

I know I have a bad temper.
I know I'm very insecure.
I know I cry, a lot.
I know I'm not perfect.
I know I can be like a headache at times.

But, do you know I'm not that complicated till you
can't solve it at all?

I just need to be loved.
I just need to be care, not thrown aside.
A hug or two with no fucking reasons will help so much.

I don't wish to drag all the sorrows and unhappiness along with me in 2010,
I just need you to change ,like you have promised, so that we can start afresh together.

Is it that hard?





p.s: Thanks Cookie Monster,thanks so much. And I guess the boats we're in are really sama sama knn.


 

Me loving my new hair colour and contacts!

Christmas came in advanced for me this year!
Look what I've gotten as surprises.



The not-so-surprised surprise for myself when I reached Sinapore.
I love it how vodka always have limited ed skin each year,
I have the disco ball cover one as well HEEEE!
Oh ya, check out my facebook for my thai try pics, lazy to blog.


Got this yesterday, from Edwin Koh Sheng Jie!
A very very pleasant surprise indeed, I was coaching the new maid till I wanna vomit blood.
Thanks EKSJ (;

And look what the postman sent over today:




CHRISTIAN DIOR TRAVELING MAKE-UP SET BABY!
This is the bomb man. *BOOMZ*


This is from * (that person wants to be anonymous), it came along with 9 blue roses as well.
Sweet much that * bother to spent so much,remember my fav flower and when through all the
hassle right? But sadly, I do not feel this way about * anymore, it has been 2 years
plus going 3 years...Deeply appreciated this (not the roses part, it's freaking me out!),
even though * doesn't allow me to return it back. Thank you very much,
not for the roses part once again!

Next next, YAMI and GirlGirl.
Yami is so big big big & furry while GG's so so so jealous!


Cute right?!

It has been yet another christmas,
I guess it's going to be a sad sad one for this year.
My one and only resolution for the year : for the better of us both.
If I lose my car/valuables/etc, it could still be replaced.
But if I lose you, it'd be gone forever for you're irreplaceable.

This is my big baby


















Shafique (aka babylove) - the guy who used to make me so happy.
Now only know how to make me more sad/mood-less and cry more.
Like what only.



This is my baby at home









My oh-so-chubby ang blur looking girlgirl ! My family missed her so much on our
most recent trip to Bangkok man! My nana (grandmother) did a superb job taking
care of her. She even bathe her! Lol





now now now...
and this is my latest baby. My TINY BABY :D



YAMI, the cream-coloured syrian! Thanks Belinda! ♥
Now does anyone want to give me a male syrian so I could name it Yogi?!
:P